One Day You Will Know

2007-11-12T23:13:00.001-08:00

When she started playing loud music we all knew her heart was broken

She is different from the rest of the girls.
She is not ~~fake~~.
She has her own style.
She likes to dance, sing, and act crazy with her friends.
She will overanalyze ~~everything~~ you can possibly say.
She can argue but hates to.
She hates drama and can ~~live~~ without it and the people that cause it.
but the one thing she can never understand is why he cant love her the way that she loves him

She is full of pain.
Her ~~deep sorrow~~ is driving her insane.
She wants to ~~scream~~
she wants to ~~yell~~
but she must never admit
how hard she really fell
so as the sun begins to rise,
She wipes her eyes,
pastes on a smile one that looks genuine
&& once again she pretends that everything is fine

Is it that ~~hard~~ to love a girl for who she really is

~~Force a smile~~ && Blink away tears
I should be strong and have no fears
But Im finding it hard not to frown
Im such a strong person but Im breaking down

Leave me alone
Don't come any closer
I'm so alone
And you call me a ~~loser~~

I’m not depressed;; I just hate everything.
I’m not a horrible person;;
I just let everyone down.
I’m not an outcast;; everyone just ~~hates me~~.
I’m not in love;; I just constantly think of him.
I’m not a mistake;; I’m just not
supposed to be here.
I’m not suicidal ~~I just want to die~~

Theres gonna be a murder tonight,
the truth revealed from behind
her tear filled eyes,
she'll show you her ~~beautiful disaster~~,
shes going to be a wonderful [/u]suicide
i wake up everyday to a failure, but hey,
this is my daily routine..
Me running into school late, and
you bringing me up, and tearing me down

im sorry if im giving up
too easy i just dont
have' the strength
to [u]fight anymore

Cause im barely breathing & i can't find the air..
i dont know who im kidding, imagining ~~you care~~

she's staring out the window and she's
losing track of time. she's searching for
a reason not to break down tonight.

i think that's what's wrong with the world:;
no one says how they feel.
they always hold it inside. they're sad,
but they don't cry. they're happy, but they don't dance or sing.
they're angry, but they don't scream. because if they do,
they feel ~~ashamed~~. and that's the worst feeling in the world.
so everyone walks with their heads down,
and no one sees how beautiful the sky is.

She's always left out
From those so called friends
In the dark theres ~~no way out~~
They never really understood her pain.

but when i look in the mirror, i see a girl who's been
through so much, and yet, still finds a way to smile at
the past. she still loves with all her heart, or what's
left of it. and when you see her walking in the hallway
i can guarentee you she'll have her head ~~up high~~
faking a smile just one last time. and for all those
people who try to break her, you never will.

in that basement we were exactly who we wanted to be.
rockstars & poets, artists & designers.
that basement was our haven because when we
walked up those stairs we
were just teenage kids with dreams
that were just too big

Sometimes she feels so pointless
This life never gives her a rest
If only she could think less
About her problems, it just makes her ~~stress~~.

She never really stands up for herself
Shes always taking it all
And no one really knew how she felt
'Cause no one really listens at all.

You can see in her eyes
Her sadness she hides
Her loneliness makes her cry
Wishing she could just leave this life

Okay, so you stereotype me.
By the way I dress, the type
of ~~music~~ I like, how I do my hair.
And you automatically assume
I'm that "typical emo guy"
I never gave myself a l~~abe~~l, yet
you critisize me of being something
I'm not ? You are the one who
gave me this stamp across my forehead.
How can you judge what you
don't even know ? Once you are
in my shoes, see the pain and scars
I hide from everyone... That's the day
I dare you to look me in the eye
and *beep* tell me who I am.

mkay so thats all I've got for now!!!

Bullshit !

2007-11-12T10:16:00.000-08:00

Sorry ! I'm truly sorry ! Total misunderstanding okay.. I'm really sorry. Hope you can forgive me.

2007-10-19T11:02:00.000-07:00

Love is but a song to sing
fear's the way we die.
You can make the mountains sing
or make angels cry.

sometimes you have to stand alone
just to make sure you still can

hate can be a positive emotion
when it forces you to better yourself

You might not see me cry but I do
You might not see me scream but I do
You might not see me fall but I do
You might not see me hide but I do
I do everything I do because of you.

Failure is not falling down,
it's remaining where you have fallen

the goal isn't to live forever;
the goal is to create something that will.

today im alone
and now i know ill be fine
even without you by my side
but i cant believe you left me there
i love you is what you said
the day before you packed your things and left

This island has become an ocean and my boat's too small.
The waves are crashing in and I can't save this sinking ship...

every single person has at least
one secret that would break your
heart. if we could just remember
this, i think there would be a lot more
compassion and tolerance in the world.

sometimes i wish you'd pay more attention
to my favorite songs, because the lyrics
sing words that i'm too scared to say

sorry for my emo-ish intro..
but this is what happening to me now..
by the way, this is the first time i'm blogging. so my blog kinda simple for now.
but i'll try to make it look better.

A Perfect Suicide

One Day You Will Know

Bullshit !